In the beginning, God created….God of abundance; God of Love, God of forgiveness and compassion? What is this connection all about? I miss the power, detachment, strength & inspiration I go from alcohol, pills and powder. How is this God thing going to help me? I have so much in front of me; then, someone said, “The God behind me was taking care of me all along; maybe He can help me with the road ahead!” At 9 years clean and sober, I had done all of the steps, had a homegroup, and was sponsoring people. I had a good job, and was doing pretty good, but inside, was not really centered in the Spirit. Wanting to learn more about a relationship with God, I called Bill Berk, Rabbi at Temple Chai. He asked me to come into his office to discuss my son Josh’s upcoming Bar Mitzvah, and to have a walk with him in the desert.
Upon walking into his office, he had a poster up behind his desk. “If God seems far away, guess who moved!?” Wow, that hit me in my heart; I knew Rabbi Berk was the right messenger, and that I was in the right place.
On our walk in the desert, I admitted to Rabbi that I needed a connection to God now. Ever since then, on and off when pressure of life arises, I try to reflect on those words and breathe out fear & breathe in Love.
Meeting with Casey this am for coffee, he shared the story of how he named his company. Listening to someone speak, he hear the expression, “right now” – he named his company AZ Right Now! He showed me photos from his roadtrip to North Dakota; coming back through the Navajo Nation in Utah, of Forrest Gump Point & Highway. Magnificent! He was in the middle of love!
If God took care of me before, and he’s piloting my life on the road ahead, maybe He can guide me right now? So each morning, I take a chance to admit that I still need It right now, and life has continued to get better and better. Today, I can go back to the beginning of my journey and see how God has never given up on me, and to trust Him more each day.