When I read today’s reading, it took me back to early sobriety, when I was first struggling with STEP ONE. Powerless? Unmanageable? If I can’t manage my life, who will? Thank God my sponsor referred me to the explanation in the 12 x 12. After doing some writing, I had to agree I really needed help living life if I was going to stay clean and sober. Step One still opens the doors to better living, using the other 11 Steps. It really works!
Yesterday, after packing up the car to drive back to the Valley, the thought in the back of my mind, “How’s it all going to work out?” tried to break the beautiful drive along the way. Great memories from the past, driving back and forth to the White Mountains, kept me grateful, along with calls from friends and relatives. The drive went by really fast!
I pulled into a Dennys in Mesa to get lunch for Walter in the Senior Center. We had a great visit and walked around afterwards to get some exercise. The staff there was great, and I left to get my mail and unpack. Walking into my place, a powerful thought hit me. “Steve, just stop and look how you have been carried along in the arms of Something that has provided opportunities and protected you.” Sitting on the sofa opening the mail, it was so obvious. Thank you for showing me how my answer to Step One are the next 11 Steps.
Driving over to Lure Fish House to meet my son Aaron, it was even better! Great food, service, super prices on the Happy Hour Menu (food, not drinks!), we had such a great time catching up. Father’s Day is not just Sunday; it can be any day! Yesterday certainly was; I got to be a surrogate son to my buddy Walter, and bond and share lobe with my Aaron. WOW!
Thanks to Something bigger led me out of a very dark space and time into the rooms of recovery and gave me tools to live a New Life! If you’re alcoholic, it’s a song for you!