Today’s meditations mention nothing about drinking or using drugs! When I first entered the rooms of recovery, that was my biggest problem! Yet, listening to speakers share their story, and sitting in circles afterwards to talk on the topic, it became obvious that emotional balance, serenity, and clear thinking was something I had completely destroyed in a state of being buzzed & high. Remember the commercial “This is your brain. This is your brain on drugs!” My psyche was sizzled and fried. I needed help.
My brain was trying hard to come back and function. There was a lot of static; some days, there still is. Thank God for a solution.
Yesterday after the Lunch Bunch Mtg. in Pinetop, we read Step Three from the 12x12. It’s the substitute for the combination of drugs & alcohol. It takes practice. And it works!!
Afterwards, at The Lion’s Den with my friend Eduardo, it was obvious to both of us that today, alcohol is not our problem. We talked about the adventure of living sober; to be in balance with God, often referred to as "Good Orderly Direction."
We laughed at our thought processes. (I didn’t bring out my baby rattle; it was in my backpack in the car!) We watched some of the soccer, had a great lunch, and got around to the solution: “Our real purpose is to fit ourselves to be of maximum service to God and the people about us.” What a concept! But that takes practice as well.
I left with a new sense of love and purpose, putting everything,
once again, in God’s hands. It's so easy to become the director!
Life’s been good to me, so far; thanks God for putting a fellowship together for me, rather than the characters I invited into my life on my own. But just in case, put on your safety helmet; there may still be some fallout from my old way of life.”
