I met my buddy Wilson at the MAAM meeting. Lots of great guys showed up, and the topic turned to humility and the promise of progressive spiritual experience. I can’t speak much about humility; I’m still often concerned about myself, but I did add that at the retreat, the topic was discussed and alternative ways of attaining a spiritual experience were discussed. We laughed about the idea of microdosing; when was I ever able to microdose anything?! Once I added any chemical solution to my life, the only message/voice I could hear was more, and I need it now! We compared the spiritual experience promised in the 12 Steps to a pot of drip coffee; it’s slow, one drip at a time, but after a while, we have a full rich pot of French Roast to enjoy and share with others!
At the Men’s Gratitude Group Call, I shared my story of recovery and my 43rd Anniversary. It’s not me; there’s no way I’ve been able to live a full life, with joyous and painful experiences without running off to get a drink or drug. From age 18-33, it was my daily solution to life; I had to have it.
Today, it seems like another person was living my life. You were right; deep down, underneath my anxiety, fear, instincts for money, property, prestige and sex, there is another person; a pure soul that God had breathed into me at birth.
There’s a richer Brew to prepare and enjoy each day; a Strange Brew, it’s what’s inside of you!!