Why did God do this to me? Why is my life like this? It sucks. I looked at my chip; yes it said I have 90 days, but my life is worse now than ever. I called my sponsor. Once again, he laughed, and I wanted to come through the phone & punch him, but he said,
“Steve, before you get even more angry, ask yourself this question: When did you DECIDE to become an addict/alcoholic?”
I thought for a second & blurted out, “I didn’t decide to be one, I just drank & used like all of my friends.”
Surprisingly, he gave me affirmation. Gary said something I still use to this day when facing my problems. He said,
“Exactly, we didn’t decide to become alcoholic. It happened, and it’s not our fault. Recovery is a calling, not a curse. We’ve been handed a roadmap, a fellowship, steps to build a relationship with a God of our own understanding. Keep grabbing ahold of these tools, and sharing with others, instead of the tools you used before. We are surrounded by men & women who have risen above their problems; you can too.”
Wow, thank you for showing me how to navigate the New Path in forgiveness & Your Love.
And thanks for the Good Vibrations, to help look at the positive, instead of the negative.