At the Lunch Bunch meeting yesterday in Pinetop, the topic was about emotional difficulties, and challenges in sobriety.
Someone said they had not expected it to be so hard; that, after getting a couple of sobriety chips, everything would be better!
I remember feeling and thinking the same way. In fact, at 90 days sober, I was more miserable than before I walked through the doors!
The only saving grace was a thread of hope that if it worked for you, it could work for me.
I called my sponsor. He calmly said, “Steve, welcome to life on life’s terms, instead of on Steve’s terms.
Alcohol was not our problem; it was our solution. Now, get busy on the steps.
Write down all of the things that are irritating to you. We call them causes and conditions.”
Thank you for the solution to my real problem. Expectations, fear, pride and shame are woven in most of my inventory;
but as I uncover, discover and discard old ideas, a new world opens up. A world connected with the Spirit of Love;
a Spirit of Grace & forgiveness. And thanks for letting me lean on You!
It works. It really does.