What is this inner peace and inner calm you talk about? After a few years clean and sober, I’m still plagued by fears, doubt and insecurity. How do I get rid of this inner turmoil? I drove over to Stan’s house to discuss my problem.
Sitting down in his chair, he put his feet up. I sat across from him and asked, “How the hell can you be so relaxed, detached from all of your problems? I have a family to provide for, goals and a lot of problems to work out.”
He gave me his sly, warm smile & calmly said, “Steve, alcohol was our solution for everything. You’ve come a long way. Now, go make a list of all of your fears, self-pity and the problems that you have. Then let’s talk about it. It’s a big part of the formula for letting go and to freedom.”
I left and went to the park by the lake across from his house & wrote down all of my stuff. Later, I shared it with him, and more. It passed, and I stayed sober!
Today, when overwhelmed by life, it’s still a big part of the formula to peace.
Sitting at Cyclelogical Coffee yesterday with David, we didn’t have anything to write down. We enjoyed the blue sky, the pines, and an iced mocha. We shared and laughed about our craziness and journey sober.
At the noon mtg, the topic was The Promises and that, if or when disturbed, what to do. Everyone around the table shared what their solutions had been. Some had gone back to drinking & came back. I stayed afterwards with a couple of guys for 2 hours! The promise that "when any 2 are gathered in His name" came true once again. We all drove away, filled with love & gratitude.
Thank you for showing me what to do when I’m runnin’ on empty!