Selfish & self-centered? Me? I’m just trying to make my way in the world like everyone else, trying my hardest to manage well and do the best job I can. Why is it not working for me? I remember calling my sponsor. Nothing was going my way, and I told him. He laughed and said, “Welcome to sobriety. S.O.B.E.R – Son Of A Bitch, Everything’s Real.” WTF does that mean? He continued, “Steve, There’s 2 parts of Step 1. See the dash in the1st step? Unmanageability has nothing to do with whether we’re drinking or not. We discover that without spiritual help, life is too much for us; we need to go to Step 2 & 3 instead of a drink or drug to find the comfort, freedom & happiness we need.” Thank you. That message and simple solution has continued to help me move along the path of life, often rocky, without a chemical relapse. It's one day at a time.
Yesterday, sitting in the circle at the 7am K'ue Meeting (together, we’re strong), someone mentioned California sober: weed, ketamine, microdose mushrooms is how one person explained it. That doesn’t sound like Step 2 & 3.
Today, I find I need a spiritual fix; I had tried everything out there, including valid doctors prescriptions for anxiety and still ended up drinking and dope sick. Would it be any different today? Many shared their solution to anxiety, fear, sadness and other issues was sitting down with another member reading one of the many books suggested.
Again, thank you; instead of me, myself and I and my chemical fix of choice (someone said they’d put down hard liquor for N/A Beer and drank 12 of them!)
I was tired of going round-about. Instead, I’ll be standing there with You.