Today’s messages above - the theme of God’s love and our ability to choose good - made me reflect back to sitting with Stan Grant in late 1983. There he was, a dapper elder gentleman, with a nice suit, holding a long Virginia slim cigarette, telling me that it’s just as easy to be happy than sad. WTF?? I’m saddened by everything; my alcoholism, the challenges in my family; the terror of trying to work without chemical additives in my system; and the shame of being a failure and of not being enough. He laughed & said, “Steve, I came into sobriety at age 27 in 1951; a shaking, sweating nervous wreck. If I can do it, so can you. Write down all of your problems. Share them and move forward. Quit borrowing trouble!” I took a step back; I was offended! But he was right; my troubles and issues were holding me captive, just like alcohol and drugs had a few months earlier. How had The change happened in him? Maybe it could happen for me? So, I called my sponsor and got busy in the Steps, and it’s worked. Much slower than expected, I might add! But I still must do that today.
I discovered that along with hope, faith and love, there’s a sleeping giant that centers in my mind. Life’s challenges often awaken it! How to tame it? Applying 12 Steps work far better than feeding it the old diet. I need to stop fooling myself if/when I don’t believe it, give thanks for The Gift, and pass it on.
It continues to be The Solution, one day at a time!