Reading todays meditations, I flashed back to the words I read my first 90 days clean and sober: “As we felt new power flow in, as we enjoyed peace of mind, as we discovered we could face life successfully, as we became conscious of His presence, we began to lose our fear of today, tomorrow or the hereafter. We were reborn.” I knew Something was happening but fought and struggled so hard. Somehow, I knew deep inside there was a new path & kept asking you for help to get through life, one day at a time.
I knew I didn’t want to go back to drinking but couldn’t really see the light ahead. My Dad’s favorite poem was The Lamplighter; you all lit the lamps ahead for me to see. Eventually, I've come to believe there is a Lamplighter in my life, and how and where to look for Him!
Yesterday, with a full agenda for our last day in London, we went to a play in Trafalgar Square.
Being with the family of 6, there were times I wanted to manage, or leave! My lamp started to dim, but an inner spark lit up & pushed me into the next activity.
Again, go with the flow played in my mind, and, once again, it worked!
Traveling to a pub called The Brave, we met up with their friends from London and around the world. The kids had a blast; I got to meet new people from Poland, Brazil, Italy and London. It was so wonderful; what did you say about contempt prior to investigation?! How blind I had been - and still can be. God, or Baby, you can drive my car! I just need to keep letting You! Packing up to leave, I’m so grateful for my family, and very proud of them too. I will miss them and send love on our separate journeys to the next adventure.