BBill Wilson, early in his story, writes that he would “prove to the world that he was important; that his talents, he imagined, would put him at the head of vast enterprises that he would manage with the utmost assurance.” I thought you were talking about me;
I felt just like that! Then, coming into recovery, you told me I needed to change, to let go. “Of what?” I asked my sponsor, as we began to read the material. He laughed, and said, “Steve, Something magically brought you here and has removed your obsession to drink and use drugs. It happened to me too. Now, our job is to review our thoughts, behaviors & attitudes to discover what needs to be changed. Recovery starts with desperation, then moves onto willingness. Recovery is progressive; trust the process.
Write down what is asked, and let’s see what happens." I knew I needed to change, so I started on this journey.
Yesterday at the noon mtg, a friend shared that when she was new, more than one person told her she needed to change her attitude. Wow, I’m still capable of having a bad attitude! Prejudice, being critical and afraid, I was shut off the freedom, optimism and joy of living promised in the 12 Steps. I’m glad I did the work, and know I need to continue to do so.
Later with Gail, at Lion’s Den for the annual Roger Clyne & The Peacemakers concert, we met the owners and laughed about some of our past actions & new opportunities for life. At the bar getting a Diet coke, there was Terry M. paying for 4 drinks; I told him it looked like nothing changed! Yet, everything had changed. They were all non-alcoholic drinks. We hugged and laughed, and I helped him take them all down to Donna, Mike & Joan. We had so much fun catching up, in awe of a very special fellowship we had found. What a miracle! Dancing, swaying, laughing to classic tunes, we celebrated life with rock ‘n roll! Why not celebrate?
It was obvious Something bigger than us created this moment; so let's continue to let New Life blossom!
Is there a spider in your coffee cup? Is there a hornet in your hat? Remember you got lightning!
Just know deeply that if you got here, you can continue to change. Just let go, be free and dance!