What exactly is my true purpose? Growing up, encouraged by parents and teachers to get better grades, achieve some measure of success in sports, to be aware of the human condition and active in the betterment of the world, I tried my best. Then came years of experimentation with drugs & assorted chemicals to achieve enlightenment. Instead, I landed on your doorstep broken, lost, in a very dark place. It was all your fault; I was only doing what you wanted me to do.
Upon getting a sponsor to work the seemingly stupid 12 Steps, I discovered I had mis-interpreted some messages & direction offered; my ego had ballooned to the point of a bad tumor! Thank you for the proper diagnosis; to insure ego doesn’t come back, I need to meet with you on a regular basis!
Yesterday, meeting up with my friend David at Monicas was the start of a great day. Tawni welcomed us with hugs and told us to get Gail out and meet her on the dance floor! Afterwards, numerous calls with others provided encouragement, hope and love.
We drove over to Darbys to meet friends for iced tea. Sitting down with Caroline & Connie, and the ringleader Jim & his sister, they cracked so many jokes we left with tears in our eyes; Gail to go back to work, me to finish some family projects. My son Josh called from London and sent over 100 photos, and we spent over an hour catching up. Gratitude filled my heart.
Driving to Wild Women Café in Heber to meet Larry & Dawn, we got a call they were closed on Wednesdays and met up at The Cabin Bar & Grill down the street instead. We closed the place down sharing stories that got us into the rooms of recovery and our adventures afterwards. Their daughter has a destination wedding coming up, and their horses they brought up to get out of the heat are happy too. We left around 9pm, and with one headlight out, got pulled over not once, but twice by the police up here.
“Have you been drinking” and “You know you have a headlight out?” was the welcome greeting we received. “Yes, we’ve been drinking Diet Cokes & Iced Tea, and Thank You, we will go to Auto Zone & get the headlight fixed” was our response and we got out to look at the headlight. We all laughed; the sheriff told us not to use our brights and to go straight home. Haha. in the old days going straight home was the furthest thing on my mind.
Today, I don’t intend on losing it all again! Thank you for all of the gifts.