Yesterday was the dawn of a brand-new day. Our plans were laid out in front of us to travel; all we had to do was go with the flow and enjoy! My mind wanted to manage, control & worry about everything; My buddy Johnnie calls it “the little man”; Rich Merkel called it “the little son of a bitch!” Whatever we name it, it’s not positive and helpful for enjoying the moment. I told it to go bother someone else, and we met up with Bruce Almost Almighty in San Diego. What a blessing; he gave us a tour of the beaches, Little Italy and Old Town before dropping us off at the train station. Boarding the Pacific Coastliner, we sat down in our seats. The seats were facing the wrong way; there was a curtain in the way; “why aren’t things perfect” I heard that voice say. We asked the conductor, and he said, “OH, you can take any seats you want in these 2 cars.” Gail & I laughed at each other’s irritations; instead of blaming each other, or, for me, going to the club car for a way to change my attitude, we just changed seats. Sometimes, a little geographic changes everything!
The phone rang with people calling about their “problem d’jour” – I was embarrassed to tell them mine. I had heard in meetings it isn’t always the bear who ruins a picnic; it can be the ants! Today, I’ve found that the 12 Steps help with both. I had other solutions for 15 years, but now, I can’t travel without them. They are the solution to all kinds of my disturbances.
Such a gift; at first, looking at people in the rooms at 4848 and Bloopers, I questioned whether I was really “that bad.” Yes, I was and, today, still can be. Instead of reordering my supply of solutions from DoorDash, or Total Wine, (whine for me) I use 12 Steps & go to meetings! Thanks for a Crystal Ship to carry me along the Waves.