Early on in my sobriety, I wondered how the hell is the 3rd Step prayer going to help me manage my life? I don’t get it. So, I called my sponsor. After hearing me rant, he laughed & said, “Steve, if we’re having problems with a Step, they suggested I go back to the Step before. For you, you need to go back 2 Steps! First, you admitted your life was unmanageable by you; next in Step TWO, we admit to different levels of insanity. Trying to manage on our own is insanity!” Huh? But he had a point!
So, I took the 3rd Step with hope from a new level of despair, and have continued taking a deeper 3rd Step ever since.
Yesterday, at my brother’s apt. packing up his belongings with Judy, Richard & the crew from Camelback Moving, I was wiped out.
I went to the Adobe, received hugs & love from my friend Bertha, sat down with an iced- tea, and got to relax with a book of beautiful photos of the Arizona desert. Refreshed, I headed over to the MAAM mtg to see Joe C. get his 44-year medallion. Sitting with Joe, Scott, Jim, and 75 other men, the power of hope, love and solution poured over me.
At the Zoom Mtg. from Gails, Bud C. gave a great share on Step One. The laughter, humor and stories of insanity followed. The theme was “being convinced, we were at Step THREE!” It’s as easy as 1,2,3. Simple, not easy!
As I put my head on the pillow, two distinct thoughts rang in my head:
1. Am I experienced? 2. Am I convinced? Yes, I don’t want to burn it down again! I’ll keep coming back, and I hope you do too.