You told me to quit playing God. What? I’m just trying so hard to manage my life, isn’t that what everyone does? You asked me, “So how’s it working out?” It only took me a millisecond to answer, “Not good at all. Why me?” I screamed.
You took me to Chapter 4, We Agnostics, and this jumped off the page: “Lack of power, that was our dilemma.” Yes, I had tried so hard to manage alcohol & drugs, to manage my life. I had made some progress, achieved a decent measure of success, awards & recognition, but in the end, it totally failed. I was miserable, lost, confused & frightened. You told me the same had happened to you; when you opened your mind & heart to Love, something mysterious happened: new freedom! I was willing & said, “ok, let’s go.”
Sitting on the front deck at the cabin, looking out at all the beauty of the trees, 43 years have gone by in a flash of light. A new faith, a new design for living, and a new community have carried me to a wonderful life: family, relationships, careers, purpose and Love. It wasn’t and isn’t just me; as I continue to embrace New Power, I try to let It grow deeper and pass It on. New and wonderful experiences continue to unfold.
Yet, in sadness & grief, I must face the fact there are many who don’t embrace Love. “Simple not Easy” you told me; I must continue to be open to letting go, letting God. Today, I give thanks to God for handling me with care, to pass it on and to build a better life each day.