You promised me if I took time with the 12 steps, I’d develop a relationship with a Power greater than myself; more importantly, that I’d come to rely upon it. This was a foreign concept; the God of Reason and understanding was my way of living. Self-reliance, fueled by drugs and alcohol, was going to be enough to take me to the top. That idea totally failed; coming to you, saying the Lord’s prayer, I thought I was in for a Baptism! Looking back, that’s exactly what my 24-hour chip was; a chance to start fresh. And I kept coming back.
Yesterday, meeting up with my friend Kori at Monica’s for breakfast before the noon meeting, we laughed about sitting on her porch in Flagstaff in 1986, looking up at the stars wondering how everything was going to work out! Has it been that long?
At the meeting, she passed around her 40-year chip she had received last week in Scottsdale. The 12-Steps, starting with Step ONE, carried her around the world, in the Navy, thru marriage & divorce, on Hotshot crews for the US Forest Service, raising a beautiful 18-year-old daughter, and starting many women’s AA Meetings.
Later, at lunch celebrating Rusty’s 40-year sobriety at Licano's, they gave him a fancy Sombrero, fried ice cream with a candle, and we sang happy birthday, way out of key, like we drank bottles of Tequila! We left laughing, happy to be free.
At the cabin, on a zoom mtg with Brent and his dog Bill W. from Thailand, Gail laughed in the kitchen as Bill W. barked on camera. This was far better than the party I chased all those years!
Thank you for a life beyond understanding; a Higher Love, encouragement to keep letting go, for the strength to keep growing & trusting, and for the strength to pass it on.