“Yes, the waiting is still the hardest part.”

“I have never found security and happiness through self-will; for me, the result was, and still can be, a life of fear and discontent. God provides me the path back to Him and to His gifts of security and comfort. First, however, I must be willing to acknowledge my fears and understand their source and power over me. I frequently ask God to help me understand how I separate myself from Him; to let go and trust His path.

“People who try to pray and meditate above their proper level, who are too eager to reach what they believe to be “a high degree of prayer,” get away from the truth and from reality and become imprisoned in themselves. Then, when they realize that grace and security has left them, they are caught in their own emptiness and futility and remain helpless. Most often, acedia follows the enthusiasm of pride and spiritual vanity. We then discover a long course in humility and compunction is the remedy! None of us want to be beginners. But let us be convinced of the fact that we will never be anything else but beginners, all our life!”

“There is almost no work in life so hard as waiting. And yet God wants me to wait. All motion is easier than calm waiting, and yet I must wait until God shows me His will. So many people have marred their work and hindered the growth of their spiritual lives by too much activity. If I wait patiently, always preparing myself, I will be some day at the place where I would be. And much toil and activity could not have accomplished the journey so soon. I pray that I may wait patiently. I pray that I may trust God and keep preparing myself for a better life.”