I can’t see a way out. Look at my life; what a mess. I didn’t plan or think that using & drinking would land me in this spot.
What about all of the laughter, the excitement, the freedom from all of the BS. I called my sponsor.
He listened for a few minutes before interjecting what was then new thought. He said, “Steve, you are fantasizing about all of the good times; that’s normal. Most people don’t make it out of their own BS - short for Belief System.
Write down your Belief Systems about how life should be, how you should be.
Many years later, my friend Morris told me, “don’t believe the lie.” I asked him “which one?” and we both laughed.
I use that today when I’m leaking oil, wrapped around the lies about either being a big hero or a terrible loser in life.
Thank You God for the gift of recovery, 12 Steps & fellowship to walk the path, surrounded in clarity and Love, not by my own BS.