Waking up, my thoughts started to overwhelm me. The world is crazy, out of control, wrong. Some people are so messed up. What’s it all about anyway, and why am I like this?
The program is not working; it's not delivering the promises of a happy, joyous & free life.
I called my sponsor. He asked me one simple question: “Steve, why did you come into the rooms of recovery?” I asked, “what do you mean? I had a terrible drug and alcohol problem. I didn’t know where else to go.” Then he said something that still resonates with me to this day, 42 years later: “So, see, you got what you came here for. SOMETHING greater than Steve Leitz removed your need to drink & use to cope with life. Do you think SOMETHING might be able to help with these other problems?” Then we both laughed. All I have to do is be willing to do the work, to be honest about my feelings, to uncover, discover & discard the critical, perfectionistic, hero & victim oriented thoughts and actions. What an order!
Thank you for helping me be willing each day to make a little bit of progress, not to stay stuck, or arrive at some fantasy destination my mind has conjured up. I’m free to step into the mystic.