OK, so the 1st Step says that I’m powerless over alcohol (and for me, drugs) – that my life is unmanageable.
Yes, I had to admit, very early on, that I am powerless. I could not manage my cravings, my obsession to drink & use.
The sense of excitement of getting a buzz had passed long ago.
I was clean and sober, but feelings of desperation were still making my life unmanageable.
Now, 42 years later, looking back, and at today, there are still many things I am still powerless over; even when I try my hardest, I find a lack of power to attain contentment or inner peace. On the phone with Lea Dunlap yesterday, she reminded me of the work I had done, the life I've been given, and God’s mysterious comfort & strength made available as we learn to let go.
As my good friend Jack W. says in Tucson, “there’s no graduation, no diploma recognizing our progress.”
All I have is today; my sense of contentment & inner peace is a direct result of my connection with my Higher Power.
Watching the F1 Movie last night with Gail, I was reminded how one little change in the front spoiler can allow freedom of the car to move better!
Even though I was born to be wild, thanks for the Gift of letting go; to let God put His talents to work on both my front & rear spoilers and enjoy a better ride!