You told me to tune into a still small voice. What the hell is that? I was tuned into survival mode, trying my best to stay sober, get to meetings, make a living, and provide for my family. Then I heard a joke. “Don’t let the noise in my head bother you.”
I broke down and told my sponsor, “this program is not working!” Once again, he laughed. “What do you mean? You’re sober, paying off debts, working with others, doing better than when you got here.”
I snapped back, “Yes, but I’m in a panic. I’m uncertain. I have so much noise bombarding me.”
He had me look at Step 10 on p. 84. “We have entered the world of the Spirit. Our next function is to grow in understanding and effectiveness. This is not an overnight matter. It should continue for our lifetime.”
Next, he had me turn to p. 85. Together, we read the “On awakening” instructions.
It propelled me to spend more time in self-reflection, meditation, and sharing a gratitude list.
Today, there is so much less noise; it's not debilitating as it was; I’m full of hope & gratitude, empowered with a purpose.
I’m a spirit in the material world.
I’m convinced it's no mistake I was given the 12 Steps. All I have to do is grow in understanding and effectiveness!