* Desire. What a complex word. What was I chasing, what was eluding me, what am I really looking for? *
In recovery, you promised a life being happy, joyous and free. Free from what?
Living sober, the what ifs, and whys caught up with me. I WAS a victim of many delusions outside my reach. Outside of my intellectual reach; outside of my financial reach, outside of my sexual reach. There was never enough of what I thought I wanted.
Then, you told me your stories, and shared how the 12 Steps addressed these unfulfilled desires. You offered me a solution. I was interested; of course I was. I was hopeless.
I did my inventory. Who put all of that stuff in my backpack?
Once again, with the 12 Steps, you pointed out how to sort out my baggage, to get rid of things, beliefs, ideas that don’t work for me.
The path to surrender is littered by my trash!
Finally, in "A Vision For You", you wrapped it all up by saying:
"Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny. May God bless you and keep you—until then."