When I received my 4 year chip in 1987, I was grateful but……I should be further along, why am I going through a divorce; why am I losing custody of my kids; why did I lose my job, and why am I starting over as an assistant to someone? I called my sponsor. He started me on a new chapter, an amazing journey of the Spirit. He said, “Steve, life happens. This is life on life’s terms. It’s time to take another inventory. Write down your new fears, grudges and issues.
I got out my legal pad again, and my hand would not stop. My heart let out all of my feelings of anger and failure. Meeting with him to review what I had written, it was obvious that if I were to stay sober, I’d have to accept and make peace with these issues. After screaming and crying with him, and in a therapy group, I just said, “OK. It’s Your f-ing deal, I give it all to you.”
Fast forward 38 years. Yesterday, my ex and I celebrated 4 February birthdays together: my older son Josh, 46, my partner Gails, and 2 grandsons Sammy 10 & Lev 7.
My heart was so full, in awe of the Miracles you promised if I kept asking to go to any length, work the steps and trust the process.
Today, let me once again turn the page, and pass on the gifts of letting go.