Yesterday morning meeting Dick B. at Pinetop Coffee Co, the owners Mike & Linda were terrific - so engaging and welcoming. We got our coffee and bagel and sat down at a table inside to talk about life’s challenges. The traffic in & out of the store was constant, and the love was obvious. Love of coffee, of an independent specialty coffee house on the mountain, a comfy place to gather. Contented sobriety comes in waves between life’s ups and downs. I left grateful for the fellowship created out of a common problem but delivered from darkness with a New solution. Surrender to achieve peace.
The rest of the day was filled with calls, errands, and communications with my kids and grandkids traveling in Romania. Photos of the mountains, with bears and with snow on the peaks, they all looked happy. My son Aaron got his passport and is planning to go meet them. So grateful for the miracles happening around me.
Then I received a very disturbing call from a buddy that a friend had committed suicide. Struggling for sobriety and contentment, and not finding it, he succumbed to the darkness. Charles Chirch used to say, “If you’re thinking of killing yourself, please don’t. You’re killing the wrong person.” Bill Newhall used to say, “Know you’re loved; Be Good to You.” Please, take a breath and call someone.
After dinner at home, Gail & I went to see the Steven Spielberg movie, “Disclosure Day.” Brilliant as always, Spielberg delivers a film with a message to set aside fear with a sense of wonder, hope and love. Emily Blunt has a line, “I’m an involuntary vessel.” Yet, her character goes along to demonstrate a new sense of understanding, compassion and love. It's available to all of us.
Today, thank you for allowing me Your grace and a willingness to become a vessel of love, instead of a chief critic filled with fears, doubts, and demands that neither I or anyone else can fulfill.