God-Consciousness? What is that? Looking back at my crash landing into the rooms of recovery, I was mystified. Where am I; Why me; Now what? I got a meeting list, a Big Book, and a sponsor. I called when I felt weird, which was every day! Something started to work. Hope instead of despair. Humor & laughter instead of panic, fear & shame.
Last night, almost 42 years after my first meeting, we gathered at my son Josh’s home for a Passover Seder dinner. His wife Kehau and my ex-wife Margo did such an amazing job. There were tables set up outside, and the kids were all excited for the night ahead.
Then, 25+ people showed up, including 3 dear friends from High School. There were 10 - 15 kids, miracles with lots of history together.
As we gathered around, sharing memories and stories, my other son, Aaron, showed pictures of everyone from 35 years ago!
Where had the time gone? How did we get such a good life?
You told me ‘there was nothing left for us but to pick up the simple kit of spiritual tools laid at our feet. We have found much of heaven and we have been rocketed into a fourth dimension of existence of which we had not even dreamed.’
Then you promised me that “in return for a bottle and a hangover, I’d be given the Keys of the Kingdom.” Like Bohemian Rhapsody, there IS a new, full & rich life with the 12 Steps.
From the bottom of my heart, Thank you, Thank you.
I can never repay what you’ve given me & my family; but I can pass on the magic, mystery, grace & gratitude of the journey.